I was just catching up on all the xanga’s I’ve missed while I’ve been sick. I’m sad that I missed Caroline’s departure. I’m praying for you Caroline! I know God is going to do something new in your life.
Anyway, I also ran across James’ entry from Thursday about Scripture. He said exactly what I’ve been feeling. I can’t understand why I find the Bible so dry, when I’m the kind of person who can read the same book over and over and never get sick of it.
How many times have I read “The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe”? Countless. I’ve read the entire Lord of the Rings twice now. I read Madeleine L’Engle’s Time Quartet probably a hundred times while I was growing up. I have shelves of books that I’ve read more than once, and I’m likely to run and grab one again tonight.
So it’s not as if I don’t like reading, or that I don’t like reading things I’ve read before. I enjoy taking out a book I haven’t read in awhile and getting reacquainted with it, like running into an old friend. I find it comforting. And with books I’ve only read once or twice, I’m excited to find something new in the pages that I didn’t discover the first time.
I recently reread “The Voyage of the Dawn Treader” and was pleasantly suprised to find some new nugget of truth in the episode where Eustace becomes a dragon and is saved by Aslan. I was so desperate to tell someone about what I’d read, I actually begged Kelly to let me tell her, even though she’s reading the Chronicles of Narnia and hadn’t got to that book yet.
So why can’t I read the Bible like that? With the warm fuzzies of meeting an old friend? With the anticipation of finding something new? Why does it seem more like a text-book, something to toil through and learn? (I’ve always been horrible at reading text-books when required for school).
But still, I am a information junkie. I do read reference books for fun, just to learn something. I’ve been known to run and grab a reference book or text book or even old class notes just because I had a sudden thought or question about something I’d read before, or something someone has said.
I’ll sheepishly admit to being pretty knowledgeable about the contents of the Bible. I did Bible Drill as a kid (so glad my parents made me do that), and I can probably find a verse in any book of the Bible in a matter of seconds. I can recite all the books in order. Name a story, or a character, or even a concept or part of a verse and I can probably track it down pretty quickly (although Biblegateway.com has made me lazy recently). I have Bible verses memorized in English as well as Spanish. I know the meanings of a lot of the names of people & places in the Bible (Bethlehem means “house of bread”). But I still can’t seem to find the desire to read it.
It’s pretty embarassing, since a lot of people know and recognize that I’m knowledgeable about the Bible. And I will never hesitate to offer a verse, or point out a passage that will apply to someone’s life. I’m pretty well known among my close friends as the one with a verse for every occaision. I’ve been told it’s a spiritual gift. So if I’m neglecting the Bible, how am I supposed to use my gift?
So what’s the problem? I wish I had a wonderful answer with which to conclude this xanga… but I don’t. So I’ll just end it with the question…. what’s my mental block with the Bible?????